"If you believe, you may be deceived"
An interesting new culture I've found myself in. As I read as many books as fast as I can about building an organization and becoming a great leader I keep hitting the same wall. The message I read over and over is "you can do this!", "believe in yourself!", "what you believe you can achieve!".
With all of this positive affirmation and cheerleading what's my problem? Why does it not sit well with me? I doubt this message because I know myself better than these cheerleaders do. I know I'm not the best listener. I know I'm "all in" one day, writing books and planning leadership retreats, and the next day I just want to curl up in bed and watch ted talks with chips and salsa. I don't remember people's birthdays. Sometimes I don't even remember people's names. Half the time I can't even get my kids to follow me! Some days I have a hard time convincing myself that I'm leadership material.
I want to be a leader who sacrifices for my Myrrhfolk. (Upon reading this, my 10 year old daughter informed me that a group of Myrrhmaids is called a "pod"). A leader who puts your needs ahead of my own and cares more about your successes than mine. A leader who wants to put the spotlight on you more than myself. I'm not this leader but I want to be.
Every day I stick a cork in the mouth of the Debbie Downer in my head that whispers "You're not good enough, You're going to fail, this is a waste of time". Every day I try to find at least one person I can help, serve, or encourage. I don't have to believe that I'm good enough or worth it to listen and care for those put before me. I don't have to be a MLM rock star to love and serve.
Maybe this is you too? You want to build this business and be a leader who is respected and loved. Maybe you, like me, have a little Debbie Downer in your head reminding you of all the reasons this will never work? Maybe you need a tiny cheerleader on your shoulder who will ask you everyday, "What do you have to lose if you love your neighbor?”.
How about as Myrrhmaids we decide to be the rebel misfits when it comes to leadership. Forget high self esteem, "can do" attitudes, plans, steps, and guides to get ahead and sign up the world. How about we just decide today to love the ones we're with? There's no failing in that. Someone needs you today. You. Insecure, flawed, you may not have all the answers, you don't always feel like helping, you may not even like some of the people who need you! Everyday someone needs you to be a rebel misfit leader and just be there for them. THEY are what makes this worth doing. Go find them!
I'm flexing my leadership muscles and working this MLM thing like a boss but maybe believing in myself is not what will get me where I want to go. Maybe believing in you and your dreams will help me succeed in a way that matters. I don't want to succeed alone. I want you there with me! (My little cheerleader is growing :)