Happy birthday to me! 39 times I've spun on this earth and I still sometimes feel like a brooding teenager trying to figure it all out. Since I was little, 30 was over the hill to me. My Dad and I had a running joke where we would call anyone over 30 "old crinkleys". I now qualify as an old crinkley but I am far from feeling like I've even hit the prime of my life. In my youth I thought my 20's were the only chance I had to "make it" but the older I get, cough, cough, the more I realize the best is yet to come. So in true birthday self indulgence I would like to share a few things I have found in my 30's, quick before I'm not in my 30's anymore!
I have learned to celebrate others! This is a serious triumph for me since I've been in the spotlight, on stage from the age of 4. Cheering for others, seeing the potential and beauty in others, and helping them succeed has been one of the sweetest tastes this side of heaven for me.
Lean on You
I have learned that I need others! All my life I have valued being self dependent and strong. I was always willing to "be there" for others but didn't "need" them to be there for me. Hogwash. I did need them and the truly courageous act is to reveal your deep, dark, ugly self to those who love you. It's in sharing our fears and struggles that we can truly bond and grow in our relationships.
Release your Nerd
I have learned to embrace the weird. Yup. I'm weird. I used to try to hide it or make it more "normal". I like taxidermy, creepy movies and books, dark, deep lyrics, side shows, snow- yes I like winter and cold, carny folk, and large bird sightings. Oh and I'm a Jesus freak. The older I get the more I don't care what people think of my inner nerd- or maybe very obvious outter nerd.
New isn't always Best
I have learned that marriage and motherhood can keep getting better. The idea of marriage getting boring is due to someone giving up. If you keep dating and growing in intimacy your relationship will be far from boring. Far. From. Boring. And if you're a mother your patience can far exceed what it is now. Far. Exceed. What. It. Is. Now!!! If you don't give up.
Don't be Afraid to Fail
In my twenties I was always trying to prove myself and was scared to death of failure. I felt like everyone was waiting like vultures to tear me apart as soon as I dropped. Well, fall enough and you learn that you can get up! Put a few decades behind a skill and you don't need to prove yourself anymore. It's fun to step into the unknown and try something you've never done before! I've never run a business but as I stepped into this Young Living endeavor I found that much of my life experience had prepared me for the challenge!
My 30's have been quite an adventure but honestly I'm really looking forward to my 40's. I love cheering for my loved ones, I'm married to my best friend and I'm not afraid to dream big and step into the unknown. In my 40's I'm hoping to memorize more scripture, care more about what God cares for, and step out into the scary reaches of faith. Sound boring? Wait till your 39:)